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All the things we've written in it, never really happened. [13 May 2004|11:56am]
Leaf by leaf and page by page, throw this book away. All the sadness, all the rage, throw this book away. Rip out the binding and tear the glue. All of the grief we never even knew, we had it all along. Now it's smoke. The things we've written in it never really happened. All the things we've written in it never really happened. All of the people come and gone, never really lived, all the people come have gone. No one to forgive. Smoke. We will not write a new one. There will not be a new one, another one.
The reasons for the tears, they are smoke. Smoke, Smoke.
Where do all the secrets live, they travel in the air, you can't smell them when they burn. They travel. Those who say the past is not dead can stop and smell the smoke. You keep saying the past is not dead, well, stop and smell the smoke. You keep on saying the past is not even past, and you keep saying.. we are smoke. Smoke. Smoke.

stuck on the edge [29 Dec 2003|02:20pm]
Tied to a noose. And I know I'm dead on the surface, but I am screaming underneath. If only there was someone other than me who could cut me loose. Why does it always come back to where it's started. I'm not ready, I've been running for months, away from this conclusion. It's all me. There's nothing I can do about it. Just a silly little runaway wasting time. Trying to shed the adult skin that's just begun to grow in.
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Ups and Downs [08 Dec 2003|12:36am]
Ah! Thank the lord for this balance of good good and bad bad. And while we're at it, many thanks for rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens.. good friends, king size beds, random meetings, stress relieving cigarettes, joint rantings, the look the housekeeping man gave me after cleaning our hotel room, pink cats on cute shoes, and people who pack the sun in tight with their luggage. Yeah, so I'm nuts but at leasts my ups and downs have evened out to accommodate a large scale space mountain type rollercoaster in my heart and my head. Good is good, bad is bad. It's us, it's us and it's all okay! kiss kiss

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